Hassle of a title.
by santadeer
Giving a title to this post is hard…or to any post for that matter. But the title is the least of it right…?
Anyway, 7 days in Sydney and so far it’s been good. Housekeeping-wise, just my dressing area, bed and luggages on the floor to clear up. I love how my desk and bird-outside-of-cage-earring-’stand’ looks 
Tomorrow I will be getting my mobile, it looks so complex, I shudder at the thought of being its slave. Must remember to NOT put songs in it and not that many pictures. Must utilise the MP3 that my sis gave me…so weird how I miss her so. And Mum.
I’m so glad we did Orchard together, and she spoke to me about so many things… It is with immense pride and a sort of reverence that I listen to what she is saying at times. Old Soul that thing is… Sometimes I feel Universe got our birth-timings mixed up.
I can never forget what Mother said, about having brought her in, for me. And what she’s doing now for me… I can never ever repay her in kind but I know there’s some way that I can and will do it. The nights are the worst when it gets so quiet here and cozy and lovely though I have made up my room to be, it’s not the same really. Next door/room lives a cousin and I can’t wrap my head around the fact that he has no interest in getting to know me. He is content with no words passing between us. It serves to highlight my isolation really. I wish he wasn’t staying here, so it’s out of mind. I mean we are literally siblings and it just makes me miss everyone back home terribly.
That being said, it’s my problem and best way to deal with it is to not think about it. And for the most part it is easy.
I guess I’m only feelin’ this way cuz my sister’s not online..and I wonder if she doesn’t miss talking to me… I am very possible dramatising the entire thing and she must be occupied or using the time to sleep, given mum’s shift. Even so… heh. This so is not me. And yet it is.
25-years-old really does strange things to a person’s mind. Must be on my guard.
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